2018 and 2019 were bad years for me, it was full of troubling times and failures one after another resulting in 2019 being the darkest years of my life. I have been through bad times before but not like this. I have thought about suicide before but it never went beyond just an option. This time it was different. I thought about how easy it would be to just make it look like an auto accident. One night while on an errand, I was walking up to the fourth floor of an apartment complex, while waiting for the resident to open their door I looked over their balcony and stared at the ground thinking I can jump and end the pain but I calculated I wouldn't have the necessary height where death is guaranteed. I concluded I would most likely break bones instead.
I was growing darker and darker as 2019 was fast coming to an end. In the past I would listen to messages by Andy Stanley and Joel Osteen as a way to stop the depression, try to stay in faith and get inspired to get through the day. There is something about the way they speak their messages that I just resonate to.
Water Without Rain is a phrase Joel Osteen tossed out in his message "It's a Simple Thing". God said He would give you water without rain. That means God can promote you even though you don’t have the experience. God can heal you without the treatment, even when medically speaking, it was over. God can increase you beyond your paycheck, beyond your education. He’s not limited to your job, your income. He owns it all.
I've learned what's simple to me and what's simple to God are two different things. What God calls, "Simple," we would call, "Supernatural, extraordinary, far and beyond," and your situation may look impossible. You don't see how you could accomplish a dream, or how you could get well, how your marriage could be restored. There's no water in your valley. But God is saying, "It's not going to happen a normal way. You're not going to see clouds. You're not going to have any rain. But that valley is going to suddenly fill up with water". In other words, out of nowhere you get a good break. Your health improves. The business takes off. You meet the right person. The situation turns around. That's God giving you water without rain.
In your finances you didn't see how you could get out of debt. Didn't look good on paper, but that valley began to fill up with water. Not a normal way. Not rain, not something you could take credit for. This was the hand of God promoting you, giving you wisdom, putting you at the right place, opening doors that no man can shut, and if we're going to become everything we were created to be, if we're going to reach our highest potential, we can't go around thinking, "This is too big. It's never going to work out. I never get any good breaks". No, have a new perspective. It's a simple thing for our God, and he's saying to you what he said to Jehoshaphat, "Don't worry, don't panic, don't turn around and go back home. I'm going to fill those dry places with water. It's going to happen suddenly. It's going to be unusual, not what you were expecting, water without rain".
Water without rain, God increasing you in unusual ways, beyond your salary, beyond what was expected.
Jehoshaphat stood at a crossroads. Was he going to believe that God could do something unusual, unprecedented, out of the ordinary? Or was he just going to look at it in the natural, reason it out and think, "Ah, it's not going to happen for me. I never get any good breaks. I'll never get well. I'll never meet the right person. I'm in a desert". No, you've gotta do what Jehoshaphat did and say, "Even though I don't see any sign of this happening, even though it doesn't make sense in the natural, even though every voice is telling me it's impossible, I'm going to choose to believe what God said. That he can bring me water without rain. That he can turn this desert into a stream. That he can make a way where there is no way".
The more I listened to the messages the less depressed I became. Every day is still a struggle and I still have dark days but I am learning to be more at peace with the past and I grow stronger in faith. There are a lot of wisdom in the messages, ways to pray, ways to talk to God. I need constant reminders of what is in the messages as it was easy to slip back into darkness. Whenever I drifted to the darkness I would listen to a message. I needed to repeat the wisdoms so I wouldn't fall back into darkness. That's where the idea behind this website came from. I needed a way of reminding myself of the wisdoms quickly.
I also realized I am not the only one struggling with life. If this can help me, why can't it help someone who is walking through their valley. It is my hope you find this website helpful on your walk through your valley. Please reach out if you need someone to talk with or share thoughts with.